I can't seam (wjd date unknown)

I cant seam to get it all out, as I sit here in tourchous pain, I know somehow someway you are happy.
This in itself is not what tourchers me,
But my thoughts, and the loss, and the knowledge of all that has happend eats at me.
I punnnish myself for all the mistkes I have made,
Yet in my regrets i see a patern remains the same.
I told you how I felt
And tried to show you love.
Yet a good portion of the time all i showed was jelousy.
And as it hurt the things you did
As you warned me, I warned you.
You know how lies effected me, yet you lied,
You knew that if the truth come back, my darker side would surface.
Yet you had the oportunity to help subsides these dark emotions.
We both made mistakes
Its all in the past
Perhaps we both knew in the beging it wouldnt last
Sometimes i wounder if there was anything i could have done
To have stopped the events that happend
I read your words and saw the truth
I see that If ever i ment anything too you,
It was little and scarce.
But what did i ever give you beyond minor comforts and affections here and there?
And what di you ever give me beyond the same
Perhaps that is all we need in this life to help the lonliness fade
Perhaps thats all you and I ever needed
Had you been honest with me and told me how you wanted things and kept with it, things might have been different
But i cant sit and trip on how things might have been
All i can do is hope how things might can be.
If i had a chance to be there as a friend
I would
But no matter what kind of relationship you have
You must accept the bad with the good
For they coexist within each and everyone of us
And as we mirror one another in our darkness
We also mirror the light
I miss the good days that we had,
And wounder if ever will those days be here again
It may be over this may be the end
But know no mater what
After years gone by
You’ll still be there
Somewhere in my heart
And if i never see you again
Somehow some way your’ll still be somewhat my friend
And in all of this lessons hopefully have been learned
The word no, a tough lesson to learn
Boundries are easy to cross when you ignor this word
Perhaps we both need to exprince more pain
For something to change
I wish you well no matter where you are
I hope from time to time you’ll remember me
But i cant say
I cant control
Your gona go and do what ever you feel is nessicary to you
Care please
For one day you may find the line in the fault
That snaps from all of the pressure
And the earth will shatter and the lines will break
And you’ll wounder what you did
And you’ll know
Remeber we all have our falts
We all have our p[ain
We all have our issues
We seem to only see what the other does to us
But we all know what we do to others
We all know what we feel
And believe it or not
Some of us actual share in what others feel
Don’t think I didn’t know
Don’t think i havent seen you before
Dont think i couldnt hear
Or didnt listen
I tried
I tried to believe
I tried to have faith
Sometimes it takes a foundation to build this one
But when trust has been abused
How can the morder of truth and love
Ever be stable
Your own words makes you out to be something you know you are not
Life at home, and life own your own
Something different
Yet the same
People keep calling the name
Of what you are making yourself to be
Just remember there is no I there is no me only we
Don’t fall into place
And become what others try to tell you that you are
Listen to your poems
The message someone or something within or without your self is trying to give
Perhaps you can change if you hear the words from your own subconsious
Perhaps you can heal the damnage
And break the cycle
But first you need to recognise where things went wrong
First you must dwell into the past to heal the present to look towards a bright future
Running never solves anything’
For the problems you run from will follow
The things that you fear will come out
They will terrorize
And no matter where you hide
Something will know
If nothing other then you yourself
Hold on to the precious memories
And learn from the hurtfull ones
Remeber that you may have had your share of hurt, but you have given your share as well.
Discover who you are
Discover what you want
And what you need
Distinguish between the two
Know that you are loved
And remember those whom have hehlped you and offer your help in return to those who need it
And life can’t be all that bad
The monsters and demons will cease to be evil and change to angels
When you accept the messages they try and give
Synchronicity is in the works
Divine plan involves all
No mater the divinity that planned it
Open your heart and you might see
Have a beautiful life
Alow your self to truly be the light
That inside of you i can see
And let the goodness within come to full fruition.